August 03, 2014

The Older I Get - The Less I Care

I did not want to turn thirty. Nope, wasn't having it. I referred to my last birthday as my 2nd twenty nineth birthday. I wanted NO PART of being thirty. Everyone who had already turned thirty laughed. They attempted to calm me down by saying things like, "Life is so much better after thirty!", "You really find your true self in your thirties!

"Blah, blah , blah", was all I thought.

But, turns out - they were right! Turning thirty wasn't the end of the world for me. In fact, it was after my thirtieth birthday that I finally found some self-worth and started standing up for myself. I stopped allowing people to walk allover me and made some pretty big changes in my life. And now, I'm incredibly happy
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Photo Credit: Marcel Dee Photography 

I have noticed that quite a few of the things I used to care oh-so-much about, really don't faze me at all anymore. Here are a list of four of them. 
1. Going Out Alone
I used to be petrified of going somewhere alone. I didn't want to be that outcast, sitting alone eating dinner. Or imagine going to a bar alone? THE HORROR! Nowadays, I revel in my alone time! I cherish those times. I can thoroughly enjoy my alone time. Back in the day I wouldn't dare go shopping alone. I mean, who would I talk to? Who would give me their opinion on the outfits I was trying on? Now though, face it - going shopping with someone can be tedious. LOL Going out on your own is also a great way for you to network and meet new people.  Besides - I mean, come on - I drove across the country alone, I think I can handle a measly dinner! 
2. Always Being Right 
I am a Scorpio. We are stubborn by nature (among other things, but that's whole different post). It's a fact. But one thing I have noticed over the past year or so is that I no longer HAVE to be right. I no longer HAVE to have the last word. I am mature enough, and compassionate enough to know when to just let something go. I used to harp on things, stress myself out and put a strain on my relationships. Now, in the words of Anna from Frozen..."Let it go....let it goooooo!" You don't always have to be right. As the saying goes:
"Apologizing does not always mean that you're wrong and the other person is right. It means you value the relationship more than your ego."
3. Gossip - Celebrity and Otherwise
In my twenties, I religiously read every PerezHilton.com every day. Every-Single-Day.  As I have gotten older, I've realized I was wasting a lot of time reading up about things that had no effect on my life. None whatsoever. Did I really need to know that Lindsay Lohan was back in rehab? (Though I do love you Lindsay, stay on the right track - xx) And the same goes for my personal life. So-and-so said this, so-and-so did that. Really, who cares? Does it really affect you? If not, don't worry about it. Let people live their lives as they see fit. You only have to worry about yourself and the choices you make.
4. Having Everyone Adore Me
I was a perfectionist. Truth be told, I still am in regards to some things, but most definitely not when it comes to everyone liking me. I used to worry that everyone liked me, and if for some reason someone didn't - I would obsess over why. Which of my many flaws had they found out about and how could I fix it? Now, well - I'm a  bit more realistic. Don't get me wrong, I would love it if everyone thought I was adorable and lovable - but I can completely understand AND accept if they do not. I recently had a falling out with a friend, and she said some very hurtful things to me. I'm assuming that is what she truly thinks, and that's fine. All I can do is constantly work on myself to improve and be the best version of me. If I'm not your cup of tea, so be it. 

Are there some things that you have noticed that you have started to care less and less about as you got older?